The title track of the album, this song is a reflection on all the time spent in the relationship, and asking "Do I mean what you mean to me?" and in reality "Did I ever?" This is the point in the album in which the attitude shifts from regret to acceptance. There is an acceptance of the situation, but still not an understanding; so there are still a lot of questions but the tone changes.
lyrics
You taunt me, confuse me, with all your guilt stained memories. I know you, don't mean to, its no excuse for what you do. Still you try, to sift through lies, that are only in your mind. Please can I, find misery in your size? Mine wears so well.
Do I mean what you mean to me? Or is this bitter bite of truth all that I'm fighting? Do I haunt you in your sleep like you haunt me? Or is my hope just a dream?
You tell me, what you need, and that to care means to concede. I need you, to see through, your hate and see I suffer too. Still you try, to sift through lies, that are only in your mind. Please can I, find misery in your size? Mine wears so well.
Do I mean what you mean to me? Or is this bitter bite of truth all that I'm fighting? Do I haunt you in your sleep like you haunt me? Or is my hope just a dream?
So what of love and jealousy? Our portrait of a beast. Illusions and these chimeras claw my heart to shreds. And with my dying breath, the last thing to be said, is I'd suffer and die over again for you.
(Please can I, find misery in your size?)
Do I mean what you mean to me? Or is this bitter bite of truth all that I'm fighting? Do I haunt you in your sleep like you haunt me? Or is my hope just a dream? Or is my hope just a dream?
credits
from Illusions & Chimeras (Wait & Hope),
released March 12, 2013
Written/Produced/Recorded/Mixed by Justin Buck
Justin Buck (vox, gtrs, piano), David Sutton (strings), Nick Lasky (bass), Ryan House (drums)
Falcon Heights is a band consisting of Minnesota based producer and singer/songwriter Justin Buck, guitarist/wilderness
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